Friday, June 27, 2008

Buyer Beware

Craig should have come with a disclaimer: if you marry this man, you will be miserable.

Don't get me wrong. Almost every minute I'm WITH Craig is bliss. I'm so hot for him even now after 5 years and three kids, it drives me bonkers. Here's the dilema. I'm never with him. Ever. He works 45-55 minutes away, so that means he's gone at least 10 hours a day, he's had extremely busy church callings for the past three years, and his latest, YM president means he's away on all sorts of campouts and youth conferences, mutuals, presidency meetings, etc. When he's not doing that, there are 3 little munchins that need daddy attention. So we're apart alot. Too much. I'm not the kind of wife that needs much "girl time." It's not my thing. At all. I need Craig time, alot of it, all the time and I never get enough.

So why is it that when you are dating everything is perfect and you can totally be together almost non-stop, and then the second you slip that ring on your finger, you're never together? WHY WHY WHY? I'm sure it has something to do with responsibility and being an adult, and actually going to work, and bla bla bla bla bla, but dang it all, it stinks. I actually find myself feeling a little bit jealous of the guys Craig works with, or the young men, or anyone else who gets to see my husband more than I do (And sleeping doesn't count, buy the way) isn't that pathetic?

It really is all my fault. I walked right into it. I married a man I was totally, insanely, ridiculously in love with. But now I'm cursed, because weekends like this, are agony for me. I've had fun, sure. It's been a blast to hang with the fam, and they've totally saved me from a weekend of misery, thanks Tash. But everything's a little grayer when Craig's not around. I swear the sun doesn't shine as bright. I guess life really is a trade-off, I may have married the perfect man, but I'll spend the rest of my life love-sick and miserable.


Marisa said...

Awww Cor, that is so cute! I am the same way when Rob is gone, and Josh's wife Rachel makes fun of me for it because I'm so cheesy.

Megan Erickson said...

I am totally feeling your pain.. Jordan does work a little closer.. only 30 min away.. but he has been in school for his masters for the last two years... every other weekend all weekend he is gone! I hate it!

Monique said...

Love your posts! You've had some very entertaining stories and insights lately! I have to agree with everything. And I too have crazy department store experiences. Daily baths are a must! And even though Jeremy works from home 4 out of 5 days a week, I feel like I never see him! Isn't life crazy?! Thanks for sharing all your thoughts!

jordan and maci said...

ain't it the truth girl!

Forever Young said...

Cori...Sorry I couldn't be their to help out. I am so like you Cori, I know my day is coming:( Love you!!!

Roger and Amy Ann Deming Family said...

You are too cute! I think it rocks that you are still so in love and honestly, I feel your pain to an extent. Life is busy! The only consolation that I can offer is that you married someone amazing in the gospel - which is a major plus considering our ultimate goal and you know the saying that "this too shall pass". Think of all the years ahead where you will have that time to spend together because you are ward librarians! Just take bishop's advice and keep dating - every week! I have a testimony of that. I've decided my next blog entry will be balance, cause it is super hard to find just the right amount of anything these days. You are an amazing person and I know you will be blessed for your sacrafices.